ACIM IS PULLING ME DOWNWARDS: HELP! ????

My life has spiraled a tragic mess since I started exploring ACIM. It's like I'm slipping down a dark spiral and can't get out. I believed it would bring love, but instead, it's just making everything worse. The messages are challenging, and I feel like I'm drowning. I don't know what to do anymore. Is this normal? I'm terrified. My Existence Sh